----------THE FORTUNE OF TARROT----------

udah lama ga buat blog, sekali buka eh ada di homepage kalo seorang "detective kin" lg iseng2 nyoba personality card by tarrot's card, trs ada link-nya, jd langsooonngg gan, here i come:

You are The Lovers

Motive, power, and action, arising from Inspiration and Impulse.

The Lovers represents intuition and inspiration. Very often a choice needs to be made.

Originally, this card was called just LOVE. And that's actually more apt than "Lovers." Love follows in this sequence of growth and maturity. And, coming after the Emperor, who is about control, it is a radical change in perspective. LOVE is a force that makes you choose and decide for reasons you often can't understand; it makes you surrender control to a higher power. And that is what this card is all about. Finding something or someone who is so much a part of yourself, so perfectly attuned to you and you to them, that you cannot, dare not resist. This card indicates that the you have or will come across a person, career, challenge or thing that you will fall in love with. You will know instinctively that you must have this, even if it means diverging from your chosen path. No matter the difficulties, without it you will never be complete.

P.S: I am a LOVERS?? this is just the game, believe it or not, just check it yours... :)

What Tarot Card are You?

http://www.flarn.com/~warlock/tarot

Rain christmas

This christmas so wet...
The cloud were cloudy
The aura were grey..

I feel down and stress..
My head was spining around..
I feel cold..and not healthy..
I need support..
I need a friend to talk..

Thats why i look a friend to share my problem..
In my chat w/ my friend
I've planned..
In that plan i want to tell you first, but my friend had told someone else about this plan..
I created a short message to send to you,
I was late..in a minute..until your short message came to me first..

And after that..i sent that message that i've created..
I sent the message again..which contained was the message that i sent to everyone..
I send that message..not for inviting you as my usual friend..
I send that..in order to tell you..that i send the message to everyone was like that..

But i guess i was wrong..
Sometimes kindness is not looklike a kindness..
You said i dont respect you..even just a little..?
I follow your rules..
I called you different than everyone else,
I do not have a body contact in chitchat..to someone else,
And i've waited for your greetmessage about this twentyfifth..but its none..
I called you..i asked..where are you..because the day was late night..
But what?you dont ignore my message at all..until finally i send my greetmessage to you an hour before 26..

If you feel that im not have a little respect to you..
I think that you dont know me..
And i just can said sorry..

...seperti bersama...

selama ini aku dan dia seperti bersama,
ya, memang...kami menghabiskan banyak waktu bersama,
kebersamaan itu memang ada,
namun lambat laun memudar...

kami tetap bersama,
namun seperti bersama,
karena lambat laun aku sebenarnya tidak merasakan "bersama" itu,
dia hanya asik dengan dunia maya-nya,
sesekali dia menanyakan diriku "sedang apa?"
selain itu hanya hanya bicara "oke"
lalu kalaupun bicara banyak, yang dibicarakan hanya "pusing" yang pada akhirnya
berujung pada pertanyaan ke diriku mengenai tugas yang sedang kukerjakan.

ya seperti yang pernah kuutarakan sebelumnya...
nobody knows me...because no place for me to tell my story,
even you cannot heard my story, because for you my story is just the neverending story,
so it lookslike you dont want to discuss it more.

no place...

rasanya aku ingin berteriak,
aku ingin berteriak untuk meluapkan hatiku yang selama ini terkunci.
aku ingin berteriak di tengah hamparan rumput yang sangat luas hingga suaraku dapat terlepas dengan sekencang-kencangnya.

namun semua itu tidak dapat kuwujudkan,
karena aku hanya terhenti dengan kata "rasanya"
karena kenyataannya aku hanya bisa diam membisu.

sempat aku memikirkan ide lain untuk selain berteriak demi mencurahkan isi hatiku,
YA!! aku ingin bercerita saja,
namun kembali aku tidak bisa mewujudkan hal itu,
karena aku hanya terhenti dengan kata "sempat"
karena kenyataannya aku tidak dapat bercerita ke siapa-siapa.

terakhir, aku ingin mencoba untuk yang terakhir kalinya untuk mencurahkan isi hatiku,
YA!! aku pilih bercerita dengan si "dia",
namun aku ceroboh, "dia" pun tidak dapat menampung curahan hatiku, malah dapat berbalik untuk menambah isi dari curahan hatiku yang terus terkurung.

akhirnya aku tertawa...
merenungkan kembali, bahwa memang tidak ada tempat,
selama ini aku hanya memaksakan saja.

dan pada akhirnya...

aku hanya bisa memendam segala cerita dan perasaanku dalam hati dan pikiranku saja.

..gloomy..

this fasting month, feels very heavy ..
if in previous years, the month of ramadan still I feel togetherness ..
but the fasting month is very heavy ...
almost every day, I fasted myself ...
none of my family who helped to fast.
my sister who was fasting, not in the home.
whereas the other sister, already planning to move to the Christians belief ..
situation at home is no longer felt in harmony ..
even my mama was aligned to my brother, so as if they do not want to help to break the fast food .. because they have no interest.
as well as the meal in the evening .. I prepared myself.

finally, comes the day of Idul Fitri,
and I just pray to the mosque itself was accompanied by my aunt,
Guests come to the house late into the night ..,
but all that I lead with a grateful ..

.....cloudy...

every little thing that i said or did something..it seems wrong..
you call me...PING!! just want to make sure that im not sleepy yet..
and i reply your call..to say that im not sleepy yet..
i wrote some word thats not right...
just a few word..
but your reaction is angry..
its just a few word..
what is wrong?
you know what? im not sleepy yet...its not because i did my job..
its because my heart got rainy..
and it falling down into my eyes..
but im sure that you never know it..
you never know my feel...
because only me know me..

am i too excessive?

yes ..... I can only tell myself,
no more can I ask to share stories,
perhaps by way of question and answer it myself, I can tell you to vent my emotions
now I just feel alone .. just me, myself, and I ..

I was not able to argue,
if I think to give you advice, you'd think that I was too forced and arranged
and it makes you uncomfortable and ultimately angry ..
then what can I do? I could only silently

in the end I follow what is it you want ..
now .. I'm not going to force ..
sometimes I want you to come to my days without reason
but sometimes you either do not understand or pretended not to understand
You always ask what the importance for you to come to my day
do you not realize that it was important for me to attend a special person to me
except I'm not so special to you ..

then in the end you came into my day
you gave me a beautiful bouquet
.. you all look perfect with my family welcomed me
Although actually I'm sad because my mama was not attended by
but all still walking with a beautiful and very pleasant
attention that you give is very important to me ..
thank you my dear ...

only a few days later ...
I will wait for images to be stored in phone memory
I want to find pictures of both of us
I was looking at your facebook
because I thought you used to store our photos
I began to open your photo album
but at the last photo in your profile album
I found something
but it may only a simple things..because it already past
but why it makes me sad

I tried to give you the message that I saw a picture that is less fun ..
but what was your reaction? you're just saying that if you do not like..just remove them..
its not that simple
is it fair if you find pictures of other people with me in my PROFILE album?

I'm a bit disappointed ... do not blame me if I think that you are not into me
maybe im a little excessive ..
maybe its just a simple Things
quitely but it hurt me ...