Rain christmas

This christmas so wet...
The cloud were cloudy
The aura were grey..

I feel down and stress..
My head was spining around..
I feel cold..and not healthy..
I need support..
I need a friend to talk..

Thats why i look a friend to share my problem..
In my chat w/ my friend
I've planned..
In that plan i want to tell you first, but my friend had told someone else about this plan..
I created a short message to send to you,
I was late..in a minute..until your short message came to me first..

And after that..i sent that message that i've created..
I sent the message again..which contained was the message that i sent to everyone..
I send that message..not for inviting you as my usual friend..
I send that..in order to tell you..that i send the message to everyone was like that..

But i guess i was wrong..
Sometimes kindness is not looklike a kindness..
You said i dont respect you..even just a little..?
I follow your rules..
I called you different than everyone else,
I do not have a body contact in chitchat..to someone else,
And i've waited for your greetmessage about this twentyfifth..but its none..
I called you..i asked..where are you..because the day was late night..
But what?you dont ignore my message at all..until finally i send my greetmessage to you an hour before 26..

If you feel that im not have a little respect to you..
I think that you dont know me..
And i just can said sorry..