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Bangun d pagi hari..bersemangat u/ mlakukan sesuatu terkait penelitianku bermodal wall post dr kamu..
Tiba2..ada kbr yg membuatku trhenti..
Aku mencoba menghubungimu..namun spt biasa hanya ada suara beep..beep..tdk trsambung..
Aku mencoba memutar otak..u/dpt mlakukan sesuatu..ternyata ada, namun mgkn jalan ini kurasa akan mmbuatmu kesal, maka aku meminta ijin padamu..krn aku tdk ingin ada yg kututupi..aku tdk ingin kamu punya pikiran yg mcm2..shg kamu bs fokus dluar sana..
Tp ternyata aku salah..
Maaf krn aku tdk bs menjadi yg kamu harapkan..
Skrg seolah2 smangatku terbang meninggalkanku..aku tdk berdaya..bahkan u/ mengeluarkan suara saja tak bs..aku merasa tertekan..tekanan ini trasa sgt berat! Saat ini aku tdk bs berpikir..linangan ini begitu deras..aku bingung! skrg aku hanya bs memalingkan wajahku dlm ksendirian agar tak terlihat...

..just my thought..

Said want to seriously..
Plan the future together..
Imagine the future together..
Wants to grow old together..
Spending our life together..
Don't want to miss a thing with me even just a little time..
Thats why i forced you..to do more harder..
Its all i did in order to make you can to be prouded in front of my big family..
Thats all...
Am i wrong?im sorry..thats all just my thought..

...it was mixed...

..tonight the stars so bright..
like usually, you drop me home..
like usually, i made you a coffee and a food for you..
like usually, we chat each other, seeing each other, and laugh together..
suddenly..you've actually said something that I usually hear..
but for this time..I feel a strange, worried, affraid, and did not want it
i just feel did not want you to join it at all..with no reason..
hope my feelings wrong..but please..just stay with me this time..
just to make my feelings calmly..because i dont want to losing you..and because i love you..
with love from me to you...